Life can be tough.
For me one the hardest things to do is to make a "big" life decision.
So I am taking some serious consideration right now
and trying to remind myself of some basic things.
Things such as...
My human frailty is a weakness that I battle...
But it does not have the victory.
I don't have to have the answers.
I do no fight this battle alone.
God hears and answers my prayers.
He is in control.
Psalms 54:4 (NIV) -
"Surely God is my help; the Lord is the one who sustains me."
The Lord sustains me...
Remember to pray continuously, and find rest in God alone.
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Sometimes it seems like this process is just simply taking too long,
and I wonder if I am the one holding it up or if God truly wants me to wait.
Is it my fault that I haven't made a decision yet?
Or is it because God has placed on my heart hesitations so that all things happen in his timing?
Should I be excited about what is coming next,
or should I worry that I have already let it pass me by?
These thoughts peg at my mind, and while some consideration is healthy... where's the limit? When do I let it all go and drop in God's lap to deal with it all?
Should I not cast my cares upon him?
And am I not one for whom He cares deeply?
How do I grasp His love deeply enough that I might have faith great enough?
In the grand scheme of things, I suppose that even a so-called "wrong" decision,
when made can be used and turned for good, even perfection.
For God is a master of making the imperfect to become perfect.
In that case... should I deliberate until I am old?
...Or do I leap?
The truth is that heights have always frightened me.
Oh it's true, I have leaped before with reckless abandonment.
Height combined with uncertainty though, is a terrible combination.
To let that fear determine my actions would be a sin,
for I have been made more than a conqueror in Christ.
Which decision leaves me with a greater regret?
Do both options lead to regret? And how can that be?
Which decision leads me to a closer relationship with God?
How can He say that He sees worth like the
sparkle of a perfectly cut diamond when He looks at me?
Who am I... that the Lord of all the Earth and Heavens above,
should take note of my small self and come down to live this life with me?
You might be thinking at this point that I should stop asking questions,
and get it over with already.
Say what I have to say.
Where is the advice?
But I have already done that.
As I think through these questions...
It's a start.
Because I didn't write this down to tell either of us what to do...
Although to be honest, I was hoping for some kind of revelation.
No, I think that in the questions,
I can find a way to search myself,
and offer whatever I find to the One who already knows,
and loves every bit of me.
For me one the hardest things to do is to make a "big" life decision.
So I am taking some serious consideration right now
and trying to remind myself of some basic things.
Things such as...
My human frailty is a weakness that I battle...
But it does not have the victory.
I don't have to have the answers.
I do no fight this battle alone.
God hears and answers my prayers.
He is in control.
Psalms 54:4 (NIV) -
"Surely God is my help; the Lord is the one who sustains me."
The Lord sustains me...
Remember to pray continuously, and find rest in God alone.
--------------------
Sometimes it seems like this process is just simply taking too long,
and I wonder if I am the one holding it up or if God truly wants me to wait.
Is it my fault that I haven't made a decision yet?
Or is it because God has placed on my heart hesitations so that all things happen in his timing?
Should I be excited about what is coming next,
or should I worry that I have already let it pass me by?
These thoughts peg at my mind, and while some consideration is healthy... where's the limit? When do I let it all go and drop in God's lap to deal with it all?
Should I not cast my cares upon him?
And am I not one for whom He cares deeply?
How do I grasp His love deeply enough that I might have faith great enough?
In the grand scheme of things, I suppose that even a so-called "wrong" decision,
when made can be used and turned for good, even perfection.
For God is a master of making the imperfect to become perfect.
In that case... should I deliberate until I am old?
...Or do I leap?
The truth is that heights have always frightened me.
Oh it's true, I have leaped before with reckless abandonment.
Height combined with uncertainty though, is a terrible combination.
To let that fear determine my actions would be a sin,
for I have been made more than a conqueror in Christ.
Which decision leaves me with a greater regret?
Do both options lead to regret? And how can that be?
Which decision leads me to a closer relationship with God?
How can He say that He sees worth like the
sparkle of a perfectly cut diamond when He looks at me?
Who am I... that the Lord of all the Earth and Heavens above,
should take note of my small self and come down to live this life with me?
You might be thinking at this point that I should stop asking questions,
and get it over with already.
Say what I have to say.
Where is the advice?
But I have already done that.
As I think through these questions...
It's a start.
Because I didn't write this down to tell either of us what to do...
Although to be honest, I was hoping for some kind of revelation.
No, I think that in the questions,
I can find a way to search myself,
and offer whatever I find to the One who already knows,
and loves every bit of me.
