So... It's been an interesting 24 hours.
I was preparing to hop in bed and I received an email that made me jump out of my seat.
I shouldn't really have been so excited, but I was.
And I was glowing for most of the day.
It was as if I were on a caffeine pill...
Or like I said to Pastor Troy, as though i'd had 5 cups of coffee.
My thoughts were going in a zillion directions...
And I was just praying to God that I would focus on Him and let things be.
I need Him to be in control.
So the day was Kinda Extreme.
I walked around today in complete anticipation.
Every moment, minute, and hour I was just ecstatic.
And then it happened, and I was happy...
and then it went a little downhill.
You see... I tend to feel a little foolish sometimes.
And the thing is that I'm not sure if I actually acted foolishly...
or if I'm just feeling self-conscious.
I can definately say that I was very aware.
Full of hope... and feeling a little silly, but happy.
I can't really say that things went happily ever after.
But that's mostly because life doesn't end when the sun goes down.
Most of the time that is a good thing...
So I am still anticipating... and not really sure exactly for what.
Sorry that I cannot explain further...
I feel like I don't really want to share the cause of all this.
But sometimes emotions can be a bigger part of the story.
You could probably say that I was over-reacting.
A little dramatic perhaps...
but I couldnt' take the smile from my face.
I wanted to laugh... and I wanted to cry.
It was hard to focus.
So all that being said,
I simply need to continuously surrender myself to God...
Completely.
He needs to be in control!
Because who knows what would happen if I were.
